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If all that there is at the end of life is death, why do we still live life the way it is? What is our purpose on Earth? If I can so honestly know the answer - that one day I'll just die as well, why do I need to work so hard now?

hmm, today, today.

i dont quite recall what happened today xD

hey, hi, hello.

im christie, im from mission texas.

um, nice too meet youu :)

keep posted; be my friend.

:Detc etc

.welcome too my life. ;)

Today was an okay day.� First off I worked 7-330 today in the deli.� Second I had a break at 9:15 amd my boyfriend came over for it and hung out with me while I took my ciggarett break.� Third the customer service girl calls back to the deli and asks if I would come up and help on cash register but I couldn't because there was only two of us and I�couldn't leave one person back there to do everything else by herself because there was no help.��I am sorry people called off but that ain't my fault I already had picked up a shift today so they could go to the picnic with their family. Knowing everyone is pissed off that he got his way once again. But I thought it would be good for me because it gave me more hours and more money.� But whatever I helped and did a good job and I am going to call the Nell's people and have them call and ask for Robin she said that she would give me a good referance.� The other people in there are asshole and don't want to give me anything.� They were going to give me some hours but my bakery manager threw a hissy Fit about it and they took it away from me. �I thought it would be great to get hours before I leave because then I will still have decent money till I get paid from Nells if I get the job.�Well then I had lunch and I went to Franks and sat with him for a little bit.� Two of his kids got in trouble at church today that they had to be brought home.� The other one was brought home when the rest of the kids were brought home in the alley way.� Then I went back to work and finished my day out and it wasn't a bad day.� I�wish I had�a eight hour day every day it is great and I love it.� I felt like I�was at home working I knew everything and its not like I had to ask what to do.� My mom picked me up at three thirty and we came home I got a shower and then ate dinner and now on the internet.�

I won't see frank till tuesday after work.� But that don't matter to me because he has a lot of shit he is going to be doing tomorrow and my mom wants me to cook dinner tomorrow and that means putting it in the oven early so its done for when her and her boyfriend get home for the night tomorrow.� So I have to be here and watch the food cook.� Him and I�will talk a lot tomorrow probably when he is taking a break from doing his shit.� I miss living with him though. We were living together for awhile till one night there was a big fight and he kicked me out and just said we can't live together right now till things get straightend out.� His kids asked to stay out here and I told them no becuase I had to work today and my mom said they could maybe but he said no because then they are going to beg to go down to their grandmas house because she lives down the street and has all their toys there and he doesn't want anything to happen with that.�

元曲

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元曲中我和敦敦都很喜欢马致远的秋思：

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‘枯藤老树昏鸦，小桥流水人家，古道西风瘦马。夕阳西下，断肠人在天涯’。

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他用文字构成的图画，强烈地撞击读者大脑的字画交界点。看见他的字，你脑子里自然呈现出萧瑟的画面。你没法不感伤，也不可能不共鸣。忍不住和他一首，描写敦敦苦读一日后焦急地等待下课的心情：

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下课之前涂鸦，盼着早点回家，时光慢似老马。铃声之下，谁说苦海无涯？

In life there are good times and there are bad times. You could be having so much fun and then in the blink of an eye everything can go wrong without even knowing what happened. When it happens its like a knife in your heart and worse if you dont know whats going on, you just have to remember that no matter how bad the conflict is that you should never forget those you love and always try to fix things otherwise you may loose the ones you love the most... Never forget the ones you love or you will find yourself alone in a world of conflict and sadness.

She looked into his eyes,

time after time,

to now believe that she would never,

again,

See those eyes,

that always made her smile.

"So remember,

it's never Good-Bye;

Just see you in a while,"

he said as he spoke,

about the dead.

"Remember,

it's the smiles,

that mean so much more,

than tears.

Let God unsurpress all of your fears."

She smiled and bowed her head,

as her eyes turned red,

because of tears she's tasted,

knowing this time,

they weren't wasted.

KL

First off today started out with me getting up around seven o'clock in the morning. �Then my boyfriend had called me and told me he had to go with his brother to harrisburg to fix something on his mom's property that she owns and the tennet wanted fixed.� Then my mom took me to an interview for a fourty hour job and then she brought me home.��I hung out here with the dog for a little bit and then my boyfriend calls and says that his brother dropped him off at home and went a different way so I wasn't getting picked up. �I got pissed off and told him that I was walking into town so I could see him and then my mom would pick me up.� We went to KFC to eat because I had been hungry and then we went back to his house. �We were sitting there waiting for time to go and pick up the kids. �He went and picked up the kids while I sat there and waited for them. �They get back and the boy doesn't even notice that I was there and that made me upset I felt like he don't even care for me anymore. Since I moved out to my mom's house the kids don't even recognize me when I am there. �Like they know who I�am but they don't talk to me much I don't think they want to get close to me because they think that I am abandoning them just like their mother did.� I�tell them every time that I talk to them that the only reason I am out here living is because I am trying to save money and get my own place so I can move them in or just get money so when he gets a place I can move in. �Also I�got my permit since I have been out here and I might be getting a full time job also and that would be better for everyone.�

I told my boyfriend today that I am going to be real nervous with the kids in the car for the first couple of times I have them in when I�do get my license or even when they are riding out to see my family on my permit.� I�am just scared but my boyfriend said everything will be okay eventually it will just take time with them in the car. Its kind of wierd doing something with him new its not right I�feel. �But everybody has to learn something new.� Hopefully soon my mom takes me out to drive because yea I have only had my permit a couple of days its not going to help if I�don't get behind the wheel and try.� Practice makes perfect as they always say.�

Well tonight is finally becoming a wrap for me since I�have to work in the morning.��I am doing one load of laundry so I atleast have a work uniform for tomorrow. �I always wait till the damn last minute.� I hate when I do that but it seems to be always for me ever since I was able to start doing things on my own.� I don't know I�am going to tell my managers tomorrow that i have been looking for a full time job and if they fire me over it then oh well I am going to get them back so bad that is not the thing to do.��I�can collect unemployment real quick.� I will use 30 hours if I can just to piss them off since that is what they used to give me most of the time.�

Oh my I am so bored I wish that I lived in town still I would just be leaving my boyfriends house to go home and get ready for work and I wouldn't have to get up early and go into work because of riding a bike.��